I walk through crowded rooms
alone with a gun on my back
and when I start firing
the walls turn to rubber
and the people disappear
and I am left to catch the ricochet
bullets from my actions
they slash every bit of flesh
that my body was once close with
and I am left to be the ball
of bloody pasts and starlit nights
You alone shine the light upon me
and when that light walks away
I will feel the cold of the earth
began to engulf my body
and turn me to the cold monster;
the infamous self-destruction
And who will be there to pick me up?
will it be the blood on my hands?
the image in the mirror?
or will a new light shine upon my bloody face
a disgraceful face of yesterdays past
I will bare the scars of the beast
What did you expect from me?
I write the same song over again
and yet no one seems to learn
I will ruin you as I have ruined me
Don't give me your petty cries
because you will never know
what really destroyed me?
What was my true downfall?
It could have been you or her or him
But the beast inside me lays silent
because the unknown word
makes the world think far deeper
Impulse your selves
let the brain run its course through your head
let the confusion set in as it has to mine
feel the bullets come back to inbed themselves
in your worthlessful flesh
Do you know what I feel?
You never will;
I wish it on no one
